You ever have those moments when you’re super busy, but you add one more thing to your plate anyway? And it comes with this tickle of dread, like, oh shoot, should I really be doing this? Do I have time?
I’m always cramming a million things into my schedule. Usually it turns out fine. But sometimes — like with this casserole — it doesn’t. Here I am, moving and packing, and I thought: “I’m going to make one last big meal in the kitchen!” At that moment I should have stepped outside myself, and given myself a “WTF?” look. But no. I listened. I brought out Diana Kennedy and bookmarked the “Caserola de Tortillas en Chiles Guajillos” page.
Fast forward one hour later. I was frantically pushing the sauce through a fine-mesh sieve, while it slowly dripped out the other side, one tablespoon at a time. It was 3 p.m. Crayton and I had not eaten since breakfast. My stomach growled. My feet hurt. My face felt flushed and my fingertips tingled, from seeding and de-veining more than a dozen dried chiles. Plus I’d toasted and ground some cumin seeds in my molcajete.
Diana’s recipe called for cooking the casserole on the stove, in a flame-proof dish. I don’t own one and figured I could just bake it in the oven. But now, faced with having to actually make that decision, I panicked. Wouldn’t baking it dry it out? Did I need more guajillo chile sauce? More broth? A more melty cheese? I’d also strayed from Diana’s recipe in other ways — adding chicken for some heft, adding veggies. I dunked the tortillas in the sauce and left them whole, instead of cutting them into pieces and pouring the sauce over them.
Really, my “authentic” caserola had become something else entirely: a pastel-azteca-sopa-seca hybrid. But what did that mean in terms of taste, and cooking time? Unfortunately, I didn’t have enough time to think about my desired end result, and devise a plan to get there.
So I winged it. Layered the tortillas in my casserole dish, interspersed with my fillings. I didn’t strain the sauce fully, because that took forever. Who cares if we all end up picking guajillo chiles out of our teeth.
The panela didn’t melt well, which I knew it wouldn’t, but I had secretly prayed that I would be wrong. We had no cilantro as garnish. Most terribly, I forgot to salt the sauce.
Lunch went on the table at 4:15 p.m., after two hours of cooking. I took a bite and kind of wanted to cry. It wasn’t inedible… it just wasn’t good, necessarily.
“I like it,” Crayton pronounced. He’s such a good husband.
The three lessons I learned that day:
1. Do not throw your kitchen a goodbye party when you’re in the process of moving, no matter how much you desire to give it the proper send off.
2. Do not crack open Diana Kennedy’s “The Essential Cuisines of Mexico” when you’re in a hurry to eat. The next time I pick a DK recipe — and it will be soon, because I adore her books — I will scan it to see what can be made in advance. For example, this chile sauce totally could have been made the day before. Then I would’ve remembered to add salt, and had time to fry my tortillas properly.
3. Experimenting in the kitchen is great, but not when you’re starving and your partner is depending on you for his sustenance. Next time order him a torta.
By the way, if you have any favorite guajillo chile combinations, I’d love to hear them. They just didn’t wow me this time around. (Or maybe it was the fact that they needed salt.) Maybe cinnamon?
Don Cuevas
Lesley, It sounds a lot like baked chilaquiles.
I have to avoid chiles Guajllos, unless they are well sieved, as they cause me considerable “afterburner” distress. It’s the nearly indigestible skins. Si estén pasados por un tamiz, no me hacen tanto daño.
” Next time order him a torta.”
Good counsel.
The best solution to meals when you are moving is comida para llevar, for example, un pollo asado a la leña or al carbón.
I posted the outline of what I’m calling “Cazuela de La Milpa” in today’s post. A Colorful Comida in May at http://mexkitchen.blogspot.com/
Saludos,
Don Cuevas
Lesley
Thanks DC. Guess it could be baked chilaquiles, but the ones I’ve had (only once) were soupier and slathered in much more sauce. My version was moist with next to no extra sauce lying around. I have no idea if that’s the “correct” way to prepare them or not.
Love your idea on pollo asado — I always forget about that. There’s a good spot only a few blocks from our new place (Gilli Pollos, I’ve blogged about it), so I’m sure that’s where we’ll be eating dinner while we wait for our fridge to arrive.
Don Cuevas
Lesley, I’m sure you already know the play on words that Gilipollo is.
But perhaps your readers don’t.
“gilipollas”:
stupid n. Spain (oaf, fool, jerk)
“gilipollez” s.f.
1. nonsensical statement v. 2. presumption n. 3. stupidity v. (nonsense)
I wondered how the orginal, matriz Gilipollos chicken place, on Av 5 de Mayo, Centro, got its name. Is it because it’s across the street from the 5 de Mayo side of the Hotel Gill-ow? Or is it just a silly name?
http://somosviajeros.com/blog/2006_07_20/gilipollas-y-gilipollos/
Saludos,
Don Cuevas
Leah Flinn
Lesley, I adored the honesty in this post. Not many bloggers will publicize the times when things didn’t go so well. But I know I can relate to cooking fiascos where a new recipe, time, ingredients, and hunger were all working against me…a certain meatloaf that was the WORST I had ever made…similar stressed environment you describe.
Thanks for sharing, amiga – including the lessons learned! 🙂
Lesley
Thanks Leah. Now I’m curious about the meatloaf — what happened? (Unless you’ve buried the memory in a dark place.)
Leah Flinn
Oh….I will save it for a blog post down the road. 😉
Saul was also good husband and said it was fine (he was probably just starving) – but it was barely edible!
mario aka reinito
chicken breasts stuffed with some good chèvre or some other strong, crumbly cheese go nicely with pasilla or morita sauce.
Lesley
Hmm… got a whole bag of dried moritas that I need to go through. They’re one of my favorite chilies (they smell so smoky, and so GOOD) and I’ve kind of been unsure what to do with them. Thanks for the tip Mario.
Rachel Laudan
I think the guajillos always need a touch of acid. Tomates?
Alice
Not a fan of guajillos. I find them pretty flavorless, too.
You know what could be a good addition to the guajillo paste — Korean chili paste. 🙂
Como Solo
Bon courage for the move Lesley, hope everything went well and that you´re happy in you new home!